Dealing with the Difficult Time in Our Life

by Jean Luo

We just had a South Node Partial Solar Eclipse at 2° Scorpio, and it was also conjunct Venus in Scorpio on October 25th; we will also have a North Node Total Lunar Eclipse at 16° Taurus; thus, we are in the Scorpio – Taurus Eclipse Season again at this moment!

If you have Scorpio, Taurus, Leo, or Aquarius at 2° and 16°, ±2°, you will strongly feel the effects of these Eclipses, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, or psychologically on October 25th or on November 8th. On top of the Eclipses, we also have been going through some difficult transits personally and collectively – transit Saturn in Aquarius, Pluto in Capricorn, Chiron in Aries, Uranus in Taurus, and Neptune in Pisces, etc. All these transits are slow moving transits, and they can last a few years. Because of their slow movement, they inevitably bring challenges and difficulties into our lives individually and collectively.

Indeed, ever since we came into the Scorpio – Taurus Eclipse season with the South and North Nodes transits into Scorpio and Taurus on January 19th, 2022, I have had so many friends and clients experience challenges and difficulties in their life, which has caused their deep depression and dread, feelings of being powerless, hopeless, helpless, lost and confusion, etc. Up close and personally, myself and those who live with me are experiencing incredible challenges and difficulties also. At times like this, we do wonder what the hell have we put ourselves in!? We of course don’t think we deserve such treatment in life!

Ironically, as Maitreya often stated, ‘there are no accidents in our life, and everything happens for a reason.’ Believe it or not, we are the ones who have chosen to go through such testing and times of trial in our life. Yes, I can hear you, and I am with you, “Am I crazy or stupid?! Why do I choose to go through such challenges and difficulties in my life?” Unfortunately, you are not crazy or stupid, you have indeed chosen to go through challenging and difficult life experiences to learn from. In fact, you should try and see yourself as a courageous and brave soul that has chosen these experiences as a part of your soul’s growth – karma, past lives, and life lessons.

Each of us has chosen testing and times of trial through experiencing challenges and difficulties in our life. We do so by following our chosen life plan – our natal chart. Everything in our life is revolving around our natal chart, and the planetary transits are the triggers and activators to assist us to execute our life plan.

In astrology, when the transiting planets contact our natal planets by conjunction, square, opposition, etc. in our natal chart, our life will be greatly affected, especially, when the Eclipse, transiting Saturn, Pluto, Chiron, Uranus, Neptune, and the Nodes conjunct, opposite, square or quincunx the planets in our natal chart, especially the personal planets and 4 angles, we will inevitably experience a challenging and a difficult time, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, financially or psychologically. The length and degree of challenging depends on the configuration of our own natal chart.

Astrologically, we call such a transit a difficult transit. During a difficult transit, we experience something, such as an event, a relationship, a situation, a health or a financial issue, or a career change, etc. that seems to be so much out of our control. These periods seem so fated, it’s as if there are greater forces at play, and that chance alone cannot explain what’s going on in our lives. Along with the difficult transit, comes difficult feelings, and things unexpected or planned. We may be forced to adapt to new circumstances and new realities.

Earlier this year, out of our normal thinking, we felt strongly that we needed to buy a house, although we didn’t know if we were qualified financially, and if it was possible to afford one. Anyway, we set our intention into motion. Thanks to Alan and Ratna’s creative thinking and having no fear to play the game according to the rules of the house market, we successfully bought a house in a rural area according to our needs. We were so excited to start remodeling the house without knowing the most challenging, trying, and difficult months were awaiting us.

The four of us have either strong Scorpio or Aquarius energy in our natal chart, thus, we bought our house during the first pair of Scorpio – Taurus Eclipses, transiting Saturn in Aquarius, Pluto in Capricorn, and Chiron in Aries. These astrological movements brought out our deep fear of money, and our past life energies with each other big time! The four of us went through an emotional roller coaster. Even more so for me is that the transit Pluto was forming a conjunction with my natal Chiron. The painter whom we hired to paint our house not only wasted our expensive paint, but also was very irresponsible in doing his job. For me it was like the entire house was trashed and violated. It hurt me deeply. It was like someone raped my soul and dug a deep hole in my heart. I often got up during the night, sat out on the deck in the cold air crying and asking the Universe, “Why? Why? Why?” I asked the Universe to end my life because I no longer wished to go on with my earthly life, and I was unable to understand why I felt so much pain and feelings of being powerless, hopeless, and helpless around the house remodeling.

I went through a deep soul reflection. It lasted more than a month! The emotional pain was so excruciating that it penetrated my heart, I was so wounded that I sunk into a deep and deadly depression, and I became very negative! Only when the transit Pluto slowly moved away from my natal Chiron, was I able to think and find some clarity. I eventually realized that I was going through an intense time of dealing with my own unresolved Chiron wound revolving around authority, control, and power. The painter was only acting as a powerful controller, one in authority through controlling the painting of our new house according to his manner and time schedule. It made me feel completely powerless, feelings of my soul being violated, and a deep dark hole being dug in my heart. But it was also an opportunity for me to get to the bottom of my deep wound and trauma from the past when I was in situations where I was feeling powerless, loss and abuse, etc. The painter was only acting as a mirror and a teacher whom the Universe brought to me to show me what I have buried deeply within me and what I needed to face and to let go of no matter how painful and difficult it might be. This realization indeed reshaped my perspective on power, control, and authority. It helped me make a powerful connection to my inner power and wisdom, and transformed me from a victim to focusing on my own healing in the process of letting go, and forgiveness.

This healing process is never an easy process, it involves facing so much of our own deep pain, and the past trauma that we wish to forget, and having the courage to look at our own darkness and embrace it.

Going through a challenging and difficult time in our life is inevitable. Running, escaping, denying, resisting are not wise choices of action! The only way to go through it is to allow ourselves to surrender to the process. Go within and seek the knowledge and awareness of the true purpose of going through the experience and strive to understand it and embrace it. The more we do so, the faster we go through it, and the better we become as an evolved soul. The serenity prayer is indeed a good reminder of dealing with the challenging and difficult time in our life:

Serenity prayer: “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.”