Well, here it is, another end of the month, and I am desperately scrambling to find something worthwhile to write about. Once in a while these articles almost write themselves, but generally they do not come easily. So why write them at all? The answer is that I write them for myself. They help me to organize my thoughts about a topic and generally force me to think about it in ways I had not previously considered. They are really an opportunity for me to try to express my thoughts in a (hopefully) reasonably coherent fashion. Whether they are of any value for someone else to read is for them to say. I am happy to share them with whoever chooses to read them, but they really are for my growth and development. But I digress. What to write about this month?
Beginning on the 20th day of each month, the calendar on my computer is programmed to remind to remind (nag) me that I need to write next month’s article. My goal is to have an article finished by the 25th so that I can let it “sit” in the background for a couple of days before I read it again and edit it before sending it off to Jean Luo. She has the patience of a saint as I regularly get them submitted at the last minute before the deadline. This month I know she is going to be extremely busy getting everything ready to leave for India on the 31st. I sat down after midnight last night (the 29th) to write after finally finishing the day’s chores, but the ongoing healing crisis in the family kept me busy until after 4:30 am. It is now early afternoon and we are in the midst of quite a windstorm. The electric power has been off for nearly two hours, the wind is supposed to continue until early evening, and I have only a little more than an hour of battery time on my computer. Since “necessity is the mother of invention”, I guess it is now time to make myself available at the keyboard and see what “My Guys” (my Spirit guides) have to say.
I am currently in the process of trying to write a book. Some of the chapters have flowed quite smoothly, but some of them have fought me mightily from beginning to end. About six weeks ago I was struggling with one of those troublesome chapters (“Thoughts”). I sort of knew what I wanted to say, but I also knew that there was more I needed to understand about the topic and how the chapter as a whole should be integrated into the rest of the book. Day after day I foundered in frustration, writing, rewriting, scrapping whole sections and beginning again. Nothing was working. The harder I tried, the more resistance I felt. This chapter was not happy with me, and I was not happy with it. I kept thinking to myself “Guys, I need some help here,” but I received no inspiration at all. Nothing. All I kept hearing was “Don’t worry, it’s all gonna’ work out just fine.” How annoying, and sometimes how just infuriating to keep getting the same message over and over.
One of the things that regularly happens (well, nearly every day) is that I have to get up to use the toilet after 5 or 6 hours of sleep. My eyes are still tired (sometimes even hurt), so I know that I still need another hour or two of sleep. The problem is that my mind starts churning when I go back to bed, and real sleep is out of the question. At that point I often begin to focus on “sending” healing energy to a family member in need.
I say “send” (in quotes) because that isn’t what I’m really doing at all. A long time ago (almost 40 years) I used to “pump” energy to my children when they were sick. A couple of years ago, however, I realized that “pumping” or “sending” healing energy is really counterproductive: the harder I “pump” the more resistance the energy has to overcome before it is received. I used to rhythmically repeat my client’s name or chant “Heal, heal, heal” synchronized with my breathing as a means of trying to maintain my focus on the client. Now I simply “feel” the place in my body where the client is having physical issues in their body, and simply “allow” the energy to flow through me without any conscious “work” on my part. I discovered that when I feel “good” (warmth, pulsing sensations, green or pink colors swirling or enveloping that part of the body), my client is more likely to spontaneously remark about how much less pain they experience or how much better they feel. But I digress.
That morning six weeks ago when my mind was churning, I came back to bed (still exhausted) and began my healing routine, simply “allowing” the energy to flow. I was just beginning to feel the physical sensations in my own body when my conscious thoughts casually drifted toward the troublesome chapter. “Guys, I really need some help here. I would really appreciate any help you can give me with this chapter.” Immediately “My Guys” came in loud and clear with a number of insights into the chapter on “Thoughts” and what I needed to do to better organize the material and integrate it into the book – indeed, an integrating formula to follow for each succeeding chapter in the book. I was amazed! It was all so clear, so effortless, and so exciting. I could hardly wait to finish my healing session and head for the computer. I got up and realized that what seemed like only a few minutes was almost an hour and a half, and that I felt refreshed, confident, and energized. At the time, I didn’t realize what had actually happened. In fact, I didn’t realize it until this morning just before I got out of bed.
Last month I wrote an article about my half-hearted efforts to maintain some degree of physical fitness, the theme of which was a message from My Guys: “Relax, Trust, and Do What Feels Good.” I suddenly realized that my healing sessions had habitually become exactly that. And that was what was responsible for the increased benefits for my clients. It wasn’t just about getting more fit – running faster with less effort and fatigue. It was also about the chapter on “Thoughts” and how easily it all flowed, and how wonderful I felt about it when it was finished.
This morning I asked My Guys why they waited so long to help me with the chapter on “Thoughts”. The answer was simple and direct: “We need to be invited.” In a flash I understood that they couldn’t do it for me, even if they wanted to. I had to do it. But I also understood that “their lack of assistance” was in reality my lack of inviting their assistance and allowing the energy of Spirit to flow unhindered by me, by my SELF. Spirit can’t tell us what to do even if they wanted to because it would violate our right and responsibility of free will. And they can’t do it for us even if we decide what to do because that would again violate our free will. We decide we want something or to do something, but we also decide whether or not to take the necessary physical actions on the earth plane to make it happen. But our friends in Spirit are always ready, willing, and able to assist us with the resources necessary to manifest what we desire – within the bounds of what is best for learning our lessons. But I digress.
This morning as I got out of bed – having finished my healing session – I asked My Guys again for help with a topic for this article. Their answer was simple: “We did – six weeks ago. You just weren’t listening.”
As I ended last month’s article: “What about you? What have ‘Your Guys’ been trying to tell you lately?”